Still There
I have no idea exactly how to describe this so if it sounds jumbled I apologize.
Yesterday a sweet young woman whom I am friends with on Facebook, and who just got married last winter, posted a picture of a pregnancy test with two lines. I hate that my first thought wasn't of pure joy and happiness for her and her husband but rather "I hope they didn't make a mistake by posting that too early and won't have to come back and tell everyone if something bad happens."
I remember that joy. I remember telling people at 5 weeks and being so excited we could hardly contain ourselves. And I remember miscarrying at 6 weeks and having to turn around and tell everyone that. While I know remembering those feelings makes me that much more thankful for what I have, there are times that I wish I didn't know those feelings and could just have happiness for a friend. But it's still there.
posted by Brandy at 4:34:00 PM
3 Comments:
UGH. The untelling is the worst.
When someone tells me they are pregnant (like, about 3 hours pregnant) I always take a deep breath before I say congratulations. I am always afraid they will see the look in my eye or hear the worried tone in my voice. I never, ever, think of staying pregnant as easy, and it makes me sad.
I know what you mean. I'd have the same thought. I hope everything is fine for them.
I think the exact same thing every time I see something like that. I miscarried at 10 weeks with our second pregnancy. Fortunately, I was able to have a second daughter a year and a half later. I hope that things work out for the best for your friend.
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